While only 24 weeks along, Xavier James (pronounced Zay-vee-er) was born at 7:59pm on September 13, 2020 via emergency C-section. He was 1lb 8.9 oz and 11 1/4 inches long. His dad was able to watch the entire birth and they cleaned him off and brought him over to me so I could lay my eyes on him. He was beautiful and tiny. He’s our baby!
I only got to lay eyes on him for just a moment before he was wisked away to the NICU so the doctors and nurses could work their magic. Literally a few hours after I was stiched back up I was on my way to see my baby. There he was this tiny little human that Mommy and Daddy made. Wow! Mommy and Daddy. As I’m writing this while in the mist of a pumping session, I’m still in shock that I’m somebody’s Mom. Scratch that, I’m Xavier’s Mom.
Seeing him connected to all these tubes and monitors broke me. How could this happen? My body failed me yet again and this time put somebody else’s life in danger. I found out later that I suffered from placental abruption and that caused my pre-term labor. Blood clots were also found. I’m so glad that I followed my gut the morning before by calling my friend Sasha about my symptoms. Otherwise I would have just took the pain and ended up giving birth at home. I don’t even want to think about how things would have turned out for Xavier and I.