My posts are becoming few and far between because I’m running out of things to say. I don’t want to keep repeating the same thing over and over. My son is still in the hospital, I still have my days were I’m struggling. What else is there to say? Well, I guess I can talk about what I’m thankful for. I know Thanksgiving has already passed but who cares. You gone get this post.

This year has just been shitty overall right?! Covid really just stopped us in our tracks and changed how we all operate. Through it all I’ve found some light at the end of this 2020 tunnel. So let me get started….

I’m thankful that I was able to get married to my love. Though it wasn’t the wedding I planned a whole year for, we made it work and we have a story to tell.

I’m thankful for receiving not one but two raises and a promotion this year. I’m thankful for a job that has shown how much they care about me by providing my family with meals for two weeks after I had my son. I’m even more thankful for bosses that understood when I told them I could no longer handle my work load. Postpartum really took me down. I’ve never cried to and in front of my supervisors before and this year I’ve done it several times.

I’m thankful for my friends. They give me my space and don’t bug me when I tell them I’m ok even though I’m really not. They let me cry when things go bad and helped me find solutions when I’ve all but given up.

I’m thankful for my family. Even though we all can’t be together they still are here. Especially my mom lol, nothing will stop her from coming to see me and frankly, I needed her.

I’m thankful for insurance, whew!. I’m sure those with preemie’s understand. These hospital stays, labs, meds aint cheap and pile up daily, but because of the little ones circumstances, his out of pocket costs that insurance won’t cover are being handled at no cost to us by secondary insurance. When I got the call I thought it was spam and almost hung up. Sure glad I didn’t..

I’m thankful for the hospital staff in the NICU. They’ve given us resource after resource and though it can be overwhelming, I like knowing what’s available to us. The NP’s & nurses keep us informed daily and treat Xavier like he’s one of their own.

I’m thankful for my husband. He has been by my side from day one and I wouldn’t want to go through this journey with anyone else. We’ve been together three years and I think we learned so much more about each other this year.

I’m thankful for this tiny little miracle (who’s now 7lbs!!) that came unexpectedly. He was a surprise from the very beginning and God put him in our lives for a reason. I cannot see a life without him in it. He is the absolute love of my life (don’t worry hubby, I love you too).