No, this isn't me reciting Usher lyrics. I'm overwhelmed a lot this year. I started this post in July. I've been MIA from this blog and truth is I'm tired, over stimulated, just plain over everything. Trying to focus on daily tasks is just so fucking draining and some days I just zone out of …
Category: The Parents
Where has the time gone?
Do you know what today is? It's our Anniversary!! Man, with the year we've had, it feels like it's been so much longer. I've heard so many times that the first year is the hardest and well I whole-heartedly agree. Then, add on the struggles of having a preemie and post-partum, whew! I think Leonard …
Happy Birthday
This isn't how I pictured celebrating 35... In a perfect world, today I'd be at home snuggling with my 2 week old because he would've made it to his scheduled C-section date. He'd be all I care about even though the day was technically mine. But it's not a perfect world so I will just …
Christmas is Cancelled
Call me dramatic, but it is what it is. This holiday was already going to be different because of Covid and the baby being in the hospital but Leonard and I came up with a pretty good plan to deal with that. Christmas morning was going to be spent with Xavier, we were going to …
I’m A Dad
So I know you are used to Tianna and her amazing point of view, but today (should have posted weeks ago) I just want to share mine. Being a dad has been a dream of mine for so long. I am friends and family with a bunch a great fathers and couldn't wait to join …
Hey Stranger…
So I guess yall are really reading my blog huh? I got a little nudge today from a reader that I've been ghost. Funny enough I have been trying to write for the last week, but I just wasn't feeling it. I'm here now so let's dive in. The Good: As of this post Baby …
What’s In A Name?
In a previous post I mentioned that it took us a couple months to come up with Xavier's name. We had the girls name right away since we just knew that's what we were having. Clearly we were wrong. We looked at different baby name websites and I would write down the best ones we …
Who Said Don’t Cry Over Spilled Milk?
Oh I thought someone that never breastfed or pumped a day in their fucking life said something. The saying “don't cry over spilled milk” is an age-old proverb that has been around for hundreds of years. The first historical reference to the phrase appears in a document written by British historian James Howell in 1659. fuck him...... …
I am not myself
Let me be very transparent here. I am not ok. These past few weeks have been an emotional struggle. I do think going back to work a week after giving birth was a mistake (I'm saving my leave for when Xay comes home). Granted I do work from home, I just have not been able …
My Pregnancy & Birth Story
Brace yourself. This is a long read. I had a good pregnancy.....eer so I thought. First trimester I had absolutely no appetite. It's like as soon as I found out, I was no longer hungry. I had to force myself to eat, but I never got sick. Around the second trimester I started to want …
Xavier's Preemie Life 