In the last month I'd been wrestling with the idea of ending my blog journey. I don't know I just felt like I'm not updating as often and once I feel like it becomes more of a chore instead of an outlet then I don't want to do it. Soon after I had those thoughts …
Category: Xavier
Phase II
May 12th 2021 was the last time I had decent sleep. This had been quite the adjustment, but having Xavier home has been the best thing ever. After our first week home, Leonard went back to work (downstairs), which meant that I had the baby most of the time. He often takes breaks to be …
Testing Testing 1,2,3
*cough cough* is this thing on? Ok just checking cuz I got something to say... Whew yall, the long awaited moment is here. Like for real for real. For all my day one subscribers you get to hear the good news, before I share the post on social media. XAVIER WAS DISCHARGED ON MAY 14, …
Where has the time gone?
Do you know what today is? It's our Anniversary!! Man, with the year we've had, it feels like it's been so much longer. I've heard so many times that the first year is the hardest and well I whole-heartedly agree. Then, add on the struggles of having a preemie and post-partum, whew! I think Leonard …
Hey Fam
Before you even say it.... I know I know. It's been almost a month since I've given you all updates. But note, a girl is tiiiiiiiieeed. I'm happy to have my baby back close but I completely forgot how much I am moving non-stop when I'm going back and forth to the hospital everyday. I …
You’re in Charge
Xavier controls his narrative, I'm here for this chapter. On the 13th Xavier turned 5 months (adjusted age 1 month) and decided he was too old to be on the vent with a tube down his throat. He got his hand free, grabbed his tube and took it out. Now, being his mom, I'm not …
No more pain
At least thats what I'm hoping for. Last weekend Baby Xay has his hernia surgery. We arrived Thursday night to spend some time with him while he was awake and alert and boy did he struggle. His gas was so bad and he was trying so hard to get it out that he just wouldn't …
Keep Cool Lil Mama
In my last post I said "We are trying to be patient but I’m ready to go off" and that I did. It always seems like my creative juices flow when I'm angry because last week I was about to drop all types of f bombs on here. I decided to delete that post and …
Happy Birthday
This isn't how I pictured celebrating 35... In a perfect world, today I'd be at home snuggling with my 2 week old because he would've made it to his scheduled C-section date. He'd be all I care about even though the day was technically mine. But it's not a perfect world so I will just …
New Year, No Baby
I'm so tired of this shit. Not only is my baby still in the hospital, but but he's still in Chicago.. 115 days since he's been born, and all spent in the NICU He got the injection in his eye on the 23rd and the doctor said it would be about a 90% success rate. …
