This isn't how I pictured celebrating 35... In a perfect world, today I'd be at home snuggling with my 2 week old because he would've made it to his scheduled C-section date. He'd be all I care about even though the day was technically mine. But it's not a perfect world so I will just …
New Year, No Baby
I'm so tired of this shit. Not only is my baby still in the hospital, but but he's still in Chicago.. 115 days since he's been born, and all spent in the NICU He got the injection in his eye on the 23rd and the doctor said it would be about a 90% success rate. …
Christmas is Cancelled
Call me dramatic, but it is what it is. This holiday was already going to be different because of Covid and the baby being in the hospital but Leonard and I came up with a pretty good plan to deal with that. Christmas morning was going to be spent with Xavier, we were going to …
Sweet Child of Mine..
This guy just keeps on growing, and I'm here for it. I looked at the post I made not even a month ago and I said he was 4lbs 11oz. That's seems like that was so long ago. Chunky butt is now 8lb 1oz!!! I catch myself looking at his pics from when he was …
#Thankful
My posts are becoming few and far between because I'm running out of things to say. I don't want to keep repeating the same thing over and over. My son is still in the hospital, I still have my days were I'm struggling. What else is there to say? Well, I guess I can talk …
I’m A Dad
So I know you are used to Tianna and her amazing point of view, but today (should have posted weeks ago) I just want to share mine. Being a dad has been a dream of mine for so long. I am friends and family with a bunch a great fathers and couldn't wait to join …
Hey Stranger…
So I guess yall are really reading my blog huh? I got a little nudge today from a reader that I've been ghost. Funny enough I have been trying to write for the last week, but I just wasn't feeling it. I'm here now so let's dive in. The Good: As of this post Baby …
What’s In A Name?
In a previous post I mentioned that it took us a couple months to come up with Xavier's name. We had the girls name right away since we just knew that's what we were having. Clearly we were wrong. We looked at different baby name websites and I would write down the best ones we …
Who Said Don’t Cry Over Spilled Milk?
Oh I thought someone that never breastfed or pumped a day in their fucking life said something. The saying “don't cry over spilled milk” is an age-old proverb that has been around for hundreds of years. The first historical reference to the phrase appears in a document written by British historian James Howell in 1659. fuck him...... …
It’s been a minute…
Yep, it's been a little over a week, my bad. I didn't intend on taking a break after my last post and leaving yall hanging, but a break was needed. Xavier had a little setback earlier this week which had me in my mood. It seemed like at the beginning of each week there was …
