Xavier controls his narrative, I'm here for this chapter. On the 13th Xavier turned 5 months (adjusted age 1 month) and decided he was too old to be on the vent with a tube down his throat. He got his hand free, grabbed his tube and took it out. Now, being his mom, I'm not …
No more pain
At least thats what I'm hoping for. Last weekend Baby Xay has his hernia surgery. We arrived Thursday night to spend some time with him while he was awake and alert and boy did he struggle. His gas was so bad and he was trying so hard to get it out that he just wouldn't …
Keep Cool Lil Mama
In my last post I said "We are trying to be patient but I’m ready to go off" and that I did. It always seems like my creative juices flow when I'm angry because last week I was about to drop all types of f bombs on here. I decided to delete that post and …
Happy Birthday
This isn't how I pictured celebrating 35... In a perfect world, today I'd be at home snuggling with my 2 week old because he would've made it to his scheduled C-section date. He'd be all I care about even though the day was technically mine. But it's not a perfect world so I will just …
New Year, No Baby
I'm so tired of this shit. Not only is my baby still in the hospital, but but he's still in Chicago.. 115 days since he's been born, and all spent in the NICU He got the injection in his eye on the 23rd and the doctor said it would be about a 90% success rate. …
Christmas is Cancelled
Call me dramatic, but it is what it is. This holiday was already going to be different because of Covid and the baby being in the hospital but Leonard and I came up with a pretty good plan to deal with that. Christmas morning was going to be spent with Xavier, we were going to …
Sweet Child of Mine..
This guy just keeps on growing, and I'm here for it. I looked at the post I made not even a month ago and I said he was 4lbs 11oz. That's seems like that was so long ago. Chunky butt is now 8lb 1oz!!! I catch myself looking at his pics from when he was …
#Thankful
My posts are becoming few and far between because I'm running out of things to say. I don't want to keep repeating the same thing over and over. My son is still in the hospital, I still have my days were I'm struggling. What else is there to say? Well, I guess I can talk …
I’m A Dad
So I know you are used to Tianna and her amazing point of view, but today (should have posted weeks ago) I just want to share mine. Being a dad has been a dream of mine for so long. I am friends and family with a bunch a great fathers and couldn't wait to join …
Hey Stranger…
So I guess yall are really reading my blog huh? I got a little nudge today from a reader that I've been ghost. Funny enough I have been trying to write for the last week, but I just wasn't feeling it. I'm here now so let's dive in. The Good: As of this post Baby …
Xavier's Preemie Life 