In a previous post I mentioned that it took us a couple months to come up with Xavier's name. We had the girls name right away since we just knew that's what we were having. Clearly we were wrong. We looked at different baby name websites and I would write down the best ones we …
Who Said Don’t Cry Over Spilled Milk?
Oh I thought someone that never breastfed or pumped a day in their fucking life said something. The saying “don't cry over spilled milk” is an age-old proverb that has been around for hundreds of years. The first historical reference to the phrase appears in a document written by British historian James Howell in 1659. fuck him...... …
It’s been a minute…
Yep, it's been a little over a week, my bad. I didn't intend on taking a break after my last post and leaving yall hanging, but a break was needed. Xavier had a little setback earlier this week which had me in my mood. It seemed like at the beginning of each week there was …
I am not myself
Let me be very transparent here. I am not ok. These past few weeks have been an emotional struggle. I do think going back to work a week after giving birth was a mistake (I'm saving my leave for when Xay comes home). Granted I do work from home, I just have not been able …
How’s My Baby?
I know I know. Its been a week since my last report so here it is.... Baby Xaiver has been on the up and up. Whatever infection the doctors thought he may have is gone. He's been increasing his feedings every day and as of October 3rd, he was on the max amount for his …
Can I get some of that kangaroo care?
Better known as skin to skin, because your baby's bare skin is touching your bare skin. But I'm sure you already knew that. Since Xavier is a preemie, I wasn't able to hold him right away. He had to go straight to his room in the NICU and get hooked up to different ventilators, feeding …

So What’s Up?
I know that's what many of you are really saying when you come over to the blog. How's the baby? Has been thee most frequent thing I've been asked over the last 2 weeks. It got to a point I was either copying and pasting responses, or just saying he's ok. He has been ok …
He’s Here!
While only 24 weeks along, Xavier James (pronounced Zay-vee-er) was born at 7:59pm on September 13, 2020 via emergency C-section. He was 1lb 8.9 oz and 11 1/4 inches long. His dad was able to watch the entire birth and they cleaned him off and brought him over to me so I could lay my eyes on …
My Pregnancy & Birth Story
Brace yourself. This is a long read. I had a good pregnancy.....eer so I thought. First trimester I had absolutely no appetite. It's like as soon as I found out, I was no longer hungry. I had to force myself to eat, but I never got sick. Around the second trimester I started to want …
Meet the Parents
Leonard and I actually met back in 2013 through our best friends, Ian & Reva. Legend has it, he's always had a thing for me and I was too blind to notice. So we were just friends until he decided one day to shoot his shot. He caught me during a good year, lol, because …